I was Obsessing over numbers
Gonna get personal today. (…indulge me)
One of my goals for the last two years has been to get to back to my pre-gym owning body weight.
It’s been on the top of my list every summer, then New Years, then again September when the kids go back to school.
As a woman over 40, in the fitness industry you start worrying if you "look the part". And sometimes that means obsessing over the wrong thing - like how much I weigh. Which is totally silly because if I was on the moon I'd weigh somewhere around 30 lbs and on Jupiter I'd weigh 295 pounds and would look exactly the same. Weight has nothing to do with it.
One of my goals for the last two years has been to get to back to my pre-gym owning body weight.
It’s been on the top of my list every summer, then New Years, then again September when the kids go back to school.
As a woman over 40, in the fitness industry you start worrying if you "look the part". And sometimes that means obsessing over the wrong thing - like how much I weigh. Which is totally silly because if I was on the moon I'd weigh somewhere around 30 lbs and on Jupiter I'd weigh 295 pounds and would look exactly the same. Weight has nothing to do with it.
Yes, some would argue that the scale shows you how "fat" you are but that's totally incorrect. It shows you your reletive weigh due to gravity and not how much water you are retaining, how much muscle vs fat, vs blood, poop etc. that you currently have in your body. If you're a woman the time of month changes everything.
10 lbs here, 5 lbs there, every time that number drops, you celebrate. But every time it goes up you hate yourself and the days is ruined.
And on those days, I poked the belly, squeezed the thighs and tucked the bits in that I thought people were judging me for having. Until one day, I stopped caring because I realized that the facts were this - My husband thinks I look good so why should I disagree. I was still a size 2 but a heavier size 2 so that must mean my figure looks pretty much the same but with more muscle. My clothes still fit, I have energy, I'm strong, I sleep well...
The weight on the scale does not have any more value than weighing a bag of sand. You could have lost 2lbs of muscle which is actually a step backwards when it comes to your health. Yet we place so much of our own self worth on it.
10 lbs here, 5 lbs there, every time that number drops, you celebrate. But every time it goes up you hate yourself and the days is ruined.
And on those days, I poked the belly, squeezed the thighs and tucked the bits in that I thought people were judging me for having. Until one day, I stopped caring because I realized that the facts were this - My husband thinks I look good so why should I disagree. I was still a size 2 but a heavier size 2 so that must mean my figure looks pretty much the same but with more muscle. My clothes still fit, I have energy, I'm strong, I sleep well...
So what exactly is the point of being lighter if everything I'm looking for in health is on point?
Unless I need to cross rickety bridges daily then being lighter is in no way going to help me in my life.
Something flipped, and I realized that I would never look like one of “those girls”
So I stopped obsessing over that number on the scale, and focused on another one.
How many days in a row can I show up, be present in my life and do the work.
That meant showing up for:
—> Training
—> My mental Health - Me time
—> mobility
This changed everything..
The scale can’t ruin your day anymore because you are in control.
Something flipped, and I realized that I would never look like one of “those girls”
So I stopped obsessing over that number on the scale, and focused on another one.
How many days in a row can I show up, be present in my life and do the work.
That meant showing up for:
—> Training
—> My mental Health - Me time
—> mobility
This changed everything..
The scale can’t ruin your day anymore because you are in control.
Each day is a win when you show up and do the work.
You focus on the PROCESS, and stop worrying about the PROGRESS
I know I said it was over the last few years that I struggled but to be honest, I think this has been decades in the making. Teen years, twenties, after the kids and it's taken me 40 plus years to realize that the numbers don't matter. It really matters how I feel.
You focus on the PROCESS, and stop worrying about the PROGRESS
I know I said it was over the last few years that I struggled but to be honest, I think this has been decades in the making. Teen years, twenties, after the kids and it's taken me 40 plus years to realize that the numbers don't matter. It really matters how I feel.
Motivation can get you going…goals can give you something to dream about but the only thing that really matters is showing up - fully, and doing the work.
There is no happiness without hard work.
Show up and do the work today, whatever that means for you.
Coach “Mighty Mouse” Sara
Show up and do the work today, whatever that means for you.
Coach “Mighty Mouse” Sara
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